1:02 AM 6/29/2009
there.. its nice to be cuddling spooch after his heavy day of work for all of us..im happy, nevertheless, as i went to straw's house yesterday..being with straw always assures me that i am not alone in pursuit for God's man..we wait and we'll keep waiting for as long as He proposes to depending on His purpose for us.. sometimes, i am just in this state where i am quite thankful i get to enjoy all of myself and not have to worry for someone else. (except for my family of course) They say that a person who continuously jumps from one relationship to another is a sign that he is constantly assuring himself that he is loved and wanted and is often a sign of low self esteem..no,haha, im not likely telling i know that "person," i just remembered it when i was sitting in the jeep on the way home..but then, im also happy that we treat each other as "buddies" and he also makes a point to communicate with me..i was happy i had been honest about the confession that i considered not texting him anymore..and i was moved how he reacted positively to it..there was no more left of my old self now..it was all long gone and i noticed how matured i have become ever since it happened..im very much proud for the changes i did..but somehow, remembering it all pierces up to the insides of my skin..though at a lesser degree i can say..i dont know what will happen in the future; will he fall for me again?or me perhaps? however, whichever comes first, im adamant of my decision not to indulge to it anymore..no matter how inviting the options might be..i can say that after two tries it did not worked well..and i was devastated to say the least...how much more when i open my heart for the third time...this time, i say: "something is not always better than nothing..in this case, nothing offers lesser pain and heartaches..i can handle myself well but i dont think i can say the same if i enter a relationship..its the lowest in my priority right now..it's my time to wait..ive been there, done that.. nightie Lord..im sorry i missed our date today.. :(
1 comments:
straw is here..^^
the best thing we could do the least is to wait for the man God has chosen for us..could take a long way i guess..
but for the meantime lets enjoy life..
and ang mga kbuangan ta ya..wee haha
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